1. Share my story with you guys.
2. Recount the event and kinda relive the moment. Much like writing a diary where you can read the entry when you've forgotten some of the details.
3. Believe that our bodies are capable of such wondrous things. Praise God, He made us that way!
4. Make my daughter feel guilty when she's already a teenager and giving me a hard time!!!
Okay, okay...the last one, I don't really mean...do you honestly believe I would do that???! (which got me thinking.....)
Honestly, I was scared as $#!+ about giving birth. Here's my everyday mantra to boost my courage:
1. Of all the women who gave birth before me, I too, can go through this!
2. The Lord will help me have an easy, pain-free, normal (no c-section!) & fast labor and delivery.
3. When the pain is too much...there's a reason why the epidural was invented!
Two weeks before my due date, my doctor said I'm already 2cm dilated. He wanted to see me after four days to see if I've progressed...he thinks I'll give birth before my due date. I'm hoping he's right as my tummy feels really heavy already.
Two days after that, I think I saw parts of my mucus plug when I went to pee... I'm not even sure what a mucus plug is, really! Up to now, I still don't know what the heck it is! So instead of sounding all-knowing, I'll just say that I saw this thick, snot-like disharge. I'm not scared and since I've read about this hundreds of times...I know it's normal. I've had the discharge three times this day. My mom said it means that I'm probably dilating (cervix opening up) already.
December 7, more discharge...I called my doc's office and the nurse said it's nothing to worry about. But, just like what my doctor said, I should go straight to the hospital if I have the following:
- contractions every 5 minutes for an hour
- water bag broke
At around 5 pm, I started to time my contractions since they’re closer apart and a little bit stronger. It’s happening every 5 mins.! I thought to myself, if I'm still having contractions by 6 pm, I'll tell my husband to take me to the hospital. At around 5:30, I talked to my aunt on the phone and she told me to look for signs of blood. She said on one of her pregnancies, she saw a teeny amount of blood...so little it's just the size of a pinhead.
My mom left to go to my cousin's house so I'm all alone. I went to the restroom and when I looked at the bowl, I saw more discharge with a tinge of pink. Still not sure if it's blood...Guess I'm still in denial...LOL. But just in case, I started to prepare the clothes I'll wear to the hospital.
When Jude got home (6 pm), I told him to have dinner first (I'm still wondering if labor has started as I don't feel any pain)...after a couple more contractions, I asked him to take me to the hospital. I took a quick shower and off we went. While in the car, I was praying "Lord, please...make this night the night!! I don't want to go home and wait a couple more days!".
I also knew I would forever wonder what it feels like to give birth without pain meds so I prayed, "Lord, if I'm meant to give birth naturally, when they check me, give me no other choice. I've heard that when the patient is more than 8cm, they no longer give epidural...and if I'm meant to give birth without meds, please, help me have a fast, easy, pain-free delivery..."
To be continued....Part 2